Class Take Away 12

It was the first of the fear factor project presentations. Though I am not going to go into detail about any of them, but it was interesting to see how similar some other peoples fears are to mine. A lot of the fears presented seemed to be rooted in our creativity and not being able to fulfill what we want in our lives. Orange man's presentation was really interesting to listen to. As another person put it, it was pretty much a TED talk. Overall these presentations made for some really deep and interesting conversations that really gave new light to my own fears. As well as some ways to lessen the hold that my fear(s) have on me. 

Fear Factor

One of my biggest fears is when I have to either meet with someone to talk about my future such as classes or where I want to end up after I graduate. Not only that I also just don't like having any sort of meeting or appointment with anyone. I'm always afraid that something will go wrong or I will do something I shouldn't have or I'm not prepared for them.

This fear is most definitely is mostly an anxiety for me with a bit of worry as well. It's mostly an anxiety because I'm not necessarily afraid of it or really feel worried about it, but it just really stresses me out to the point where it is all that I am thinking about. Once the appointment is over though it such a sense of relief to the point where I question why I stress so much about it because it always ends up turning out well. But no matter what I still stress a lot about it the next time.

I notice that this fear presents itself quite a lot throughout my life.  Doing new things and meeting with people about my future are always gonna be needed in order for me to advance myself both as a person and as a worker in the industry. I think this fear mostly just keeps me from experiencing all that this world has to offer to me. This is such a creative industry too so experiencing different cultures/countries and the beauty of this world helps you to broaden your creative skills. This fear/anxiety is most definitely blocking my creativity to some degree. If I could just let go and not let this anxiety get the better of me, I believe I will in the long term have better creativity and a better experience with other people. 

Creating something that represented my fear has helped me fully see what this fear really is. And hopefully a beginning to really breaking away from this fear/anxiety so as to not hinder my creativity and help further my career.

Class Take Away 11

So far I am in the final stages of the fear assignment.  There are a few more questions I need to answer from the assignment and then move on to creating something that represents my fear.  I am still not exactly sure on what I will be creating, but I do have some ideas on what I could do. 

As for my altered book, I have not exactly been doing much with it so far.  I know exactly what I want to do, but I haven't been having enough time to be working on it without taking away from my other classes. The idea that I have should not be too hard to accomplish, but it will take a bit of time.  So, I am hoping to begin at least the first stages of the project within the next week. Then working little by little everyday up until the due date. Should be plenty of time to get what I want to get done. 

Class Take Away 10

It was quite interesting seeing all the different interpretations of the "Who am I and Why am I here" assignment.  I especially like the one where the student started examining the Who am I in terms of of whole universe. Going off that, it can make a person fearful about what the point of them having existed in all of it.  However, I don't think that should be an excuse for not doing you love to do and finding your true self to get the most out of your life. 

It seems like it was pretty evenly split between the people who took the assignment a little more in literal sense and the people who took it a little more in a spiritual/different sense. It makes me wonder if the people who did it more literal are the people who may be more likely to follow the rules of society more than the people who are looking at it in a spiritual/different way. All in all hearing all the different interpretations definitely will help me in thinking of whats really important in examining who i am and why i am here. 

Who Am I and Why Am I Here?

I'm at a loss with what to do with the blind drawing that we did in class for this assignment, so I'm just writing this blog post to examine exactly who I believe I am and why I am here in the Media Arts and Science program at IUPUI.

Talking about the blind drawing, I think it's weird how even as we track our pen movements and our eye movements together the drawing comes out horrendous. 

Who am I? In the literal sense I'm Nathan Nodley, 21, in the Media Arts and Science program at IUPUI. I am not at all a fan of talking in public or even small talk. Small talk as in the occasional time someone you barely know or not at all begins talking to you about random stuff and you just have no idea why. I am a very introverted person as well. If I begin talking to someone about all kinds of things that have to do with me then you can most certainly believe that is a good thing. I tend to not do a lot with friends. For one, I don't hang out with anyone from my high school class anymore and two the new friends I have are in Indy and I live an hour a way so it's hard to find time to get together. Oh and Mexican is my #1 favorite food!!

Why am I here? Why am I in the media arts and science program? First off I really love playing games, but I am also very curious of how everything is made and put together. That's why I chose to go down the path to get into the game industry. It helps to that I very much enjoy thinking up environments/games and doing 3D modeling. I'm still not up to the skill level where I am fully confident in my modeling abilities, but I'm so close and should be there by the end of next semester. Also I really love the feeling of joy I get when I'm playing a really great game for the first time. I can only imagine how it feels for the people who worked on the game knowing there are a lot of people enjoying what was probably a very stressful time making the game. There were two moments where I knew this is what I wanted to do. First, when my favorite game of all time, Uncharted 2: Among Thieves, came out it was absolutely the most beautiful game I had ever seen. The environments and vistas were amazing. Second, was when I watched Avatar in theaters.  Nothing could touch that movie in terms of photorealistic CGI.  I was at the time thinking holy crap I want to be able to do this. And I'm on my way to it and I could not be happier.

Class Take Away 9

MOVIE DAY!!!  This was an interesting movie that we watched in class today.  Off the Map for me really made me think about my future and things I could do to help me out.  Gibs in the movie first worked for the IRS, but ends up seeing the beauty of the way the family lived and the beauty of the  land they lived on.  I think for me I see it as something we all should do, just go out and enjoy the beauty of everything and leave all the stress behind us for a period of time. Open up your eyes to things we may not see in our everyday lives and unlock hidden creativity that you either didn't know you had or just digging farther into the creativity already there. It was only when he began to leave his old life behind that Gibs realized that he actually didn't think he found his mother after she hung herself like he originally had thought.  

I need to start experiencing amazing things in this world to give myself more reference for creating 3D worlds.  The more I've experienced the more choices I should have when working on projects and that in itself should lead to me gaining more experience for the industry which will help in finding a job.